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Introverts, parties, and friendship

I consider myself to be an introvert.  This means that I find that social situations drain my energy, whereas staying home alone refills my energy.  That doesn’t mean that I don’t like social situations or seeing my friends, it just means that I need to be emotionally full first.  It is kind of like money.  You earn money, and you spend money.  Introverts earn our “money” through solitude.  Extroverts earn “money” through social activity.  Similarly, our spending habits are opposites.  Introverts spend their “money” through social interactions, whereas extroverts spend their “money” through solitude.  Neither is bad or good, they are just different.

Small circles

My husband and I are both introverts.  We either both wither or both thrive in any given situation.  Unfortunately, this means that we don’t get out much to see our friends.  It also means that we don’t have many friends to get out and see.  We haven’t invested the emotional energy to develop such friendships.  I have a grand total of 68 friends on Facebook as of right now, one of whom is a stuffed elephant.  I guess I have kept my circle of friends small out of fear of vulnerability.  The perception I hold of myself has also been one of being rather unremarkable.  I will do for someone to talk to if no one else is around.

A party

Last night I went to a party for the first time in who-knows-how-long.  Actually, I can probably count on one hand the number of adult parties I have been to in my life.  It was a fantastic party.  It was fun trying to identify everyone’s costumes (some people were very helpful and wore name tags as part of their costume).  What struck me most, though, was that although some of these people hadn’t seen me in probably ten years, they remembered me.  They spoke to me and engaged me in conversation.  I was ashamed that although I remembered them, I did not recognize them for all the time that had passed.  These are people who remembered my children getting up to toddler antics, and these particular children are now grown, living on their own, with one planning a wedding next summer.

Vulnerability is ok

The evening made me realize that people outside of my family do care about me.  I know intellectually that this is true, but I have been very slow to accept it.  People really do want to be my friend.  It is I who have been shutting people out.  I am the one who has been missing out with my fear of vulnerability.  I do wish to expand my social network, but I feel very awkward in my attempts.  But nothing ventured, nothing gained, so perhaps I can seek out more people and more social situations.  Maybe someone wants me to be their friend, too.  Although social gatherings expend my energy, they are a valuable way to spend it.

Your turn

Do you consider yourself an introvert or an extrovert?  How do you spend out and refill your emotional energy?

4 thoughts on “Introverts, parties, and friendship

  1. Cathy

    Judy! It was so good to see you again! Yes I Amanda extrovert! Lol! Was there ever a question! After you both left I to,d the story of how you and Terry “helped” us to the bathroom! Too funny! So good to see you don’t be a stranger!

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    1. Judy Post author

      Hm… I don’t remember that incident. Perhaps you can share it and refresh my memory if it is appropriate to do so publicly. It was great to see you, Cathy.

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  2. Jocelyn Demuth

    It’s very true what you say. I am both an introvert and an extrovert, right on the line in every personality quiz I have taken. Sometimes I am refilled by being with people, other times with solitude. Too much of one makes me drained. But I also have lost track of people through the time disconnect. But they are not forgotten, at least to me. I don’t easily discard anything, people, experiences, books, fabric. I guess I am I will always be a Scadiani at heart.

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    1. Judy Post author

      I am starting to realize that once we find our tribe, they are always our tribe. I have lost track of many people because I am terrible at keeping in touch.

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